Blaming your lack of fitting in on being black, and buying into this bullshit your head is telling you is your real problem.
I've felt the exact same way you describe in this post, but instead of "black", insert "short", "ugly", or any number of excuses I can come up with for why I don't fit in, and people don't like me, and it's not fair, and it's everyone else's fault. Bullshit. People aren't friendly to you because as a severely depressed person, you're probably a real bummer to be around. You probably look awkward, uncomfortable, and generally unapproachable.
You need to stop blaming society for your isolation and start working on shifting your shitty perspective. Some things that have helped me immensely are exercise and mindfulness meditation. Talking about your feelings helps too - as long as the people listening aren't just going to co-sign and feed into the depressive, self-pitying garbage that you're spitting out.
P.S. Feel free to contact me if you want to change.
Wow, all this time, all these people that have been suffering, they could have been cured with some positivity. We should probably start telling everyone and put a stop to all that "self-pittying garbage". If only they knew this crazy secret, maybe we wouldn't have lost so many amazing people to suicide.
Yes, "shitty perspective" doesn't help the way people treat you, but that's exactly why depression is so dangerous. It's this inward spiral of worsening and worsening conditions and no matter how "positive" you try to stay, there's no chance of swimming against that current. I mean, did we learn nothing from Robin Williams. Dude was nothing but positive on the outside, while inside he was obviously suffering horribly.
How about instead of blaming Jonathan (or anyone else suffering from depression), you acknowledge the real danger that depression presents. Shit, that's half the problem right there. There's such a large stigma surrounding depression that people are afraid to even try to open up never mind getting treatment. Your comment only proves those inner fears are true, which ironically makes it that much worse.
Lastly, just because someone co-signs your depression, doesn't mean they're feeding in to it or even that they're opinion will even have any affect on it worsening or improving. You know what does make it worse though, ignorant comments on the internet telling you it's all in your head and there's this "one simple hack" to eradicating it.
I'm speaking from the perspective of someone who has actually suffered from severe, crippling depression, and in my experience, the greatest danger is feeding into this fantasy world the depressed mind conjures. My post is acknowledging this "real danger".
I also never claimed there was "one simple hack". As someone who deals with depression on a daily basis, I offered what I think are a few of the most important tactics for keeping it at bay.
I speak from experience, so please don't write off my comment as "ignorant".
I've felt the exact same way you describe in this post, but instead of "black", insert "short", "ugly", or any number of excuses I can come up with for why I don't fit in, and people don't like me, and it's not fair, and it's everyone else's fault. Bullshit. People aren't friendly to you because as a severely depressed person, you're probably a real bummer to be around. You probably look awkward, uncomfortable, and generally unapproachable.
You need to stop blaming society for your isolation and start working on shifting your shitty perspective. Some things that have helped me immensely are exercise and mindfulness meditation. Talking about your feelings helps too - as long as the people listening aren't just going to co-sign and feed into the depressive, self-pitying garbage that you're spitting out.
P.S. Feel free to contact me if you want to change.