Sorry to hear about your situation. If it helps, I can relate somewhat, as a founder who has struggled with depression at times. I wish I had some magic incantation to give you to help, but unfortunately I don't. I can say this though:
1. If you ever just need somebody to talk to, feel free to give me a shout.
2. Fish-oil is widely considered to be an effective over-the-counter / natural supplement that helps with depression. I've used it before and seen noticeable results.
3. Regarding feeling like an outsider: Maybe you are an outsider. And maybe that's not a bad thing at all. Maybe consider a worldview where your outsider status is irrelevant or even a positive. Try reading The Fountainhead or some Nietzsche for inspiraton?
4. You may find some value in reading the philosophy of the Stoics[1]. The Meditations[2] by Marcus Aurelius might be a worthwhile read.
1. If you ever just need somebody to talk to, feel free to give me a shout.
2. Fish-oil is widely considered to be an effective over-the-counter / natural supplement that helps with depression. I've used it before and seen noticeable results.
3. Regarding feeling like an outsider: Maybe you are an outsider. And maybe that's not a bad thing at all. Maybe consider a worldview where your outsider status is irrelevant or even a positive. Try reading The Fountainhead or some Nietzsche for inspiraton?
4. You may find some value in reading the philosophy of the Stoics[1]. The Meditations[2] by Marcus Aurelius might be a worthwhile read.
[1]: http://www.iep.utm.edu/stoicism/
[2]: http://classics.mit.edu/Antoninus/meditations.html