The thing I want to do is to go back to college full time and major in mathematics. I would like to get a master's/advanced degree in math ("maths" if you are non-US :) ) and while doing so, ponder and study the queen of sciences.
I've made it to 41 years old. I am a software engineer, and I'm so-so at it. I self-studied my way to a C++ programming job after working my way from network admin to web developer to programmer to software engineer since 1999. I'm not even all that great at math. But I failed my first programming course back in 1985, but I am now a well-paid professional. I know if I do a math program full time and work really hard, I can at least get to "good".
My one true joy is solving problems and I even enjoy figuring out proofs. I have taken enough math courses to know I thoroughly enjoy the subject. But there are no evening programs anywhere near my home to study math. There are no part-time programs. I would have to quit my job and find a way to finance myself through a proper math program.
I am willing to give up my current lifestyle and live in poverty to pursue this goal.
My question is, why shouldn't I do it? What lies at the other end of the goal? Am I crazy? Have any of you done such a thing? It feels like I am throwing my life to the wind. But if I don’t do it, I will regret it the rest of my life. Advice appreciated.
Money, beyond subsistence, isn't really correlated with increased happiness, as numerous studies have shown. Just make sure you always have a reasonable level of health insurance coverage. Otherwise, I can't think of any good reason not to do what you want.
At the very least, if you find you really don't enjoy it and that it isn't worth giving up two or three or four more years of your life to schooling, you'll put that nagging question of "should I..." to rest, and it'll only cost you a few grand and one semester. I find that having those kinds of questions nagging at my mind is far more detrimental to my emotional well-being than the actual outcomes.