> It's very weird to be in love with and scared of the same thing: Apple.
Sound like an abusive relationship, and like what an abused partner would say to try to rationalize the fact that they're economically dependent on the abuser.
While I try not to use that phrase publicly (because I know it will offend some people who see it as exaggeration), thinking of an Apple developer/customer as being in an abusive relationship is exactly what convinced me to get out & stop using/developing for Apple platforms. It took me a few years to see it, and nudges from friends ("Why do you put up with them treating you like that?") but it was a very useful perspective on Apple for me.
Sound like an abusive relationship, and like what an abused partner would say to try to rationalize the fact that they're economically dependent on the abuser.