> That killed my motivation for putting effort into most things, pretty much except computer science where we are still ok with trusting self taught people for some reason.

100% same, except computers bore me to death now. I would even be willing to go back to school at this point if it wasn’t tens of thousands of dollars.

I’m probably going to be homeless soon and based on the research I’ve done on the shelters near me, I’m going to try like hell not to forced into a shelter.

For one, from what I’ve read, the conditions are squalid. So many reports of bed bugs, old moldy food, etc. I’ve heard family shelters and shelters for women are nicer, but I’m a single male. If I want to sleep with bugs and eat shit, I can do that myself while keeping away from volatile people and situations.

And then there’s theft. Some of the rules regarding property and just the general environment seem to lead to a lot of theft. If I catch someone stealing my shit, I’m going to defend myself and my property, which I imagine a shelter won’t take too kindly to.

Then there’s the fact that they seemed staffed with jaded, underpaid individuals who don’t give a shit about you and want to force their believes down your throat while the owners continuously suck down government money. They also seem to be very much first come first serve, some even charge you money to stay, so it’s not like it’s even a stable position.